Motherhood

I could not wait to be a mother
This is what I prayed for…yearned for…begged for

Why, then, am I struggling to embrace my calling as a mother?

Sometimes I feel like a failure—like I can’t do anything right

The house is a mess

My children are so very demanding

I snap at my husband and become easily frustrated

And my attitude is not where it should be

I feel like I can’t keep up-like I can’t be the “supermom” I was supposed to be

It seems like so many other people “get it”—why can’t I?

I could blame it on the fact that my child is so strong-willed

Or look for a host of other excuses 

But, the bottom line: I am a mother

I have been given this gift

And I need to cherish it or I will miss out on these fleeting moments

Lord—help me not to compare myself with others

When I look around and compare myself to others,

I will never reach the mark.

Instead, help me to look to You for the way I am supposed to raise my children

To look to You for strength, wisdom, and patience

Because You, Oh Lord, know my children and You know what’s best for them

May I teach them to obey you and may you equip me to train them properly

For they are your children

And I have only been entrusted with them for a little while

I am a mother

This is not an easy task

Help me not to take it lightly

But, also give me the ability to laugh at myself

To enjoy this road I am on

And bring You glory each day

May I change my attitude so that You will shine through me

"In the same way, let your good deeds shine out for all to see, so that everyone will praise your heavenly Father." 

Matthew 5:16